March 3, 2023

March 3, 2023 

     When will I ever learn?!?! So a couple of things happened today. First, I contacted someone who is occupying a place that my name is on. I wanted to find out how court went. Well, it did not go well. They decided to, in short, blame me, saying I made promises that things would be better. But what about all the other people involved. Multiple people in that place were supposed to be taking care of things. It was not my responsibility to pay everyone else's bill. I have my own to do. I was kind enough to have my name on the thing, so they had a place to live. One of the people couldn't even get a place I'm tAnd look at what happens. 

     Also, I get told the person I am at odds with showed "receipts." What receipts did they show... What they gave me in payments. Well, I have that, along with ALL the receipts for everything else I paid for. Which totals THOUSANDS of dollars. The amount of stuff I paid for vs. what I was given by multiple people doesn't add up. In fact, I put my family in a lot of financial hardships. Our good credit is gone, BCS I maxed all the credit cards to help pay till I couldn't pay anymore. All the while being promised, "you will get paid back for everything". 

     The one person I am now at odds with started bcs I wouldn't pay for anything anymore. And it went from there. I know they have talked bad about me to many people. Giving "their" version. It kills me, too. BCS my husband, and I got slandered after helping them for almost a year... I really was a fracking idiot. They did everything they could to try and destroy me. Contacted people I knew, lying to them. It was just unreal. 

     That was my morning, then tonight I am online and see a now ex-kid log on and catch the name. The same last name as someone else that recently defriended me bcs I didn't do "what I was supposed to" in their eyes. So my dumb butt writes them to ask. I really shouldn't be shocked they didn't write back. But I wished them a good life in my last message. I just can't keep doing this with people. Why do I do that? I should not have written them. As soon as I saw the name, I should have just known. This same kid talked down on us to the ex, claiming it was another kid that told them. The ex even said they thought that the ex-kid just wanted their part of the relationship. 

     I am so stupid for trusting so many people and allowing them to use me mentally, emotionally, and financially. But that is ok. I am learning the hard way. I am learning to not let people close. Not to trust the way I used to. And simply avoid most people unless you are already close to me and have shown me who you are. The real you. 

     There will be more about all these peeps in the future since I have so much to work out in my head. Till next time ...