April 13-23 - My nightmares

April 13-23

     Over the past 8 years, I have had a few people I would consider “my nightmares.” There are 5 in particular that has happened over the past year alone. 4 of those 5 have happened at least one other time in the past, but I was dumb enough to believe that they learned from the past, so I gave them a second chance. And 1 of those 3, I actually stupidly/ foolishly gave a third chance to because they got actual mental help from professionals.  But, in the end, they all destroyed me somehow, and some are still trying to destroy me. I am aware they will always be my nightmares. Just as I am always aware that due to them, I will never have the trust I had because of them. I don’t think I can open up like that again. The emotional, mental, and financial pain is real. I don’t wish it on anyone. 

     The first one is my ex-girlfriend. She is the one I gave 3 chances to. That was such a mistake. We will call her ex-gf or Thelma. When I met her, she was 18/19 and in college. Met her in the virtual world. Part of a virtual family I had (foolishly) gotten involved with. There is so much to this one over the 5 years I was back in this world. 

     Next is the ex-child of the virtual world. This one, I only gave her 1 chance, too, after she left). I was running a business in the world, and I had told a current virtual child (V.C.) that she would be mine one day (that child would be Bubbles). She ended up falling out with her family and came to me, and I (of course) happily took her and her sisters in. The sisters would be (current V.C.) Snickerdoodle and Ex-V.C. Joyce. Joyce really pulled some numbers on me over the __ years. 

     Next is a piece of work. A real game player. The last one that became an ex-V.C. She was very unexpectant. Hubby thought from the time we met her in 2020 after an incident that she might be a game player, but I never wanted to see it, I guess. She was actually given a few chances, first by being a grandchild, then by becoming a child. But she will never be allowed back, not that I think she will ever try with the exit she made. She left a lot of broken hearts in her wake. 

     The next one is a by-product of the last one. She/He only was in my life bcs of the last one. And to this day, I regret this choice every second of every day. I say She/He and will probably say “They” thru all this bcs before they moved here, they were a trans male, but when they moved here, they wanted to be a futa. Even the avie they made was a female. I am sorry, but if I am trans, and I want to be a male in real life, why would I use a female avie with HUGE boobs and a vajayjay. I would think you would want to be in a world where you can’t be in RL yet. But who knows. And They have told us PERSONALLY they are confused, and they want to be half male/half female. So I think it would be safer to just say “they.” This one, by the way, is the one that was only given one chance, and will never be allowed another.

     Last but certainly not least, the worst nightmare of them all. The ex-roommate. She takes the cake of them off. She has caused more trouble for more people than I can even name. I just stupidly, like so many others that just met her, think she is the victim of circumstances. She plays disabled. Not saying she isn't partially disabled, but I am at the point I don't think she is as much so as she perceives. Just like when it comes to her weed consumption, she doesn't just smoke for pain but to be a pothead, which she shows by telling people out loud, she smokes (now imagine me saying this in a loud screechy voice) "Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed!!!!!!!!!!" Also, she posts pics all the time about being a pothead and all that. She tells people she will get away with anything because she is "mental." She is a user, abuser, and so many other things. So she will be called with ex-roommate (or something to that effect) or Marjorie.